an even worse month

first I am doing this from mike's phone so forgive the errors. january was nothing compared to february. wednesday michael at age 39 had a mild heart attack. from there it was been a nonstop rollercoaster . we thought he would need open heart surgery to replace the valve but for now that might be held off a few years with medication and healthier living. he did go through two heart catherizations resulting in one stent being placed in one atery. now we are just trying to get his wound to stop seeping and get him out of bed without passing out like he did this morning. if that happens he can go home. although since we have no family near us I have to say I am very scared of having him home and trying to care for him & the three kids. I am having trouble leaving him alone even in the hospital. not sure how to deal with these emotions. this sure is changing my outlook on our lives.
well this is hard to type on so I will sign off and try to update soon.